Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Onward and Upward

Life has me busy. I have every intention of updating everyone individually, but I find that I just keep putting it off. So the easiest way will be to keep my blog updated.


In this blog you will find some details about 1. My new home 2. My planned trip to CA


1.My new home
I can't wait to have a moment to take pics to show! I moved into a 6 bedroom (one room is a converted sun room and mine is actually more like an office), 1.5 bath, 3 story old home. It's MASSIVE, the four main bedrooms (two are the attic converted) are each the size of a decent sized studio. My room is the smallest room. It's enough for my twin bed, close hanging unit and a few other small items -its small but still comfortable. All rooms have high ceilings and windows. I live with 5 other women who are all around my age. A little bit about the girls:
Solana -DJ, who as it turns out knows a few people I have met out and about. She works for a record label and does some event work.
Katy -recently became the "head" of the house. I forget her day job, but she also goes to massage school and has a weekend/night job as a receptionist at one of the largest clubs in SF. She also does capoeira -something I have been interested in for a while. I am looking forward to going to a class with her.
Jordan -she coaches swimming
Emily -Burlesque dancing fire eater... yeah!
(Catilyn) Grady- she is the only one I have not yet met. Her and her bf recently going into the organic meat raising business and have a farm upstate, so it is rare she is at the house. She used to be the "head."
Everyone's schedules are so very different so most of the time you're either home alone or everyone is in their room. I am the only one that gets up at 6 so I am never rushed for the bathroom.
As you can imagine, it is very artistic and full of wonderful energy.

Kitty is the only animal in the house and the girls love her and welcome her to roam the house. She is in heaven!! The first couple of nights she could not settle down because of the excitement. Finally Monday night she laid down and was out cold within seconds and even began snoring! Just like a child, She had me
laughing.
Grady has two dogs that sometimes come with her to the house, but I figure the place is large enough it will not be an issue. Plus eventually I might start letting her back outside since we live in a pretty quite neighborhood.

We have a backyard and covered front and back porch. My commute as doubled to an hour, which I am trying to get used to, but the pros out weigh the commute.
The only real bad thing is that since everyone mostly stays in their room or is never home the house is disgustingly dirty -like so bad some parts are as bad as being outside. It seems like the girls are starting to care tho and have mentioned some things they plan on doing in the next month during their various days off. I have swept the main areas I go which has made it tolerable for me.
I gave my room some fresh paint and a good cleaning before I moved in, so at least I am comfortable in one room.

Oh, and I only pay 250!! This is going to give me the opportunity to pay off my debt (which I could not see happening for years to come) and save like crazy. An idea I have is to pay the debt then save enough to the point I can quit my job and focus my energy on finding what I really want to do, which might include going back to school or getting a part time somewhere that points me towards my long term goal of working with children. Oh the possibilities!!

That's about it so far, but that's a lot!

2. My planned trip to CA
I already have the vacation days approved and kitty taken care of, so I just need to book my flight which will be probably within the week.
I was going to stop in AZ on my way out, but as some of you saw on my fb post, my "family" no longer welcomes me. It's ok. I knew the day when my crazy ways would no longer be accepted by them. It's sad, but I understand.
Anyhow, it leaves more time in CA!
I plan to fly out Friday 5/20 night and arrive early Sat morning, leaving the following Sunday night.

Plenty of time to see everyone and relax, after all, it is my vacation!

Much love to you all oxo

Thursday, January 20, 2011

17 days

Shinee Pink arrives 2/6. Weeks sooner than originally planned. I am so excited!

The End.

Monday, January 17, 2011

5 months 12 days, but feels like forever.

During my first month here I kept starting then deleting what was to be my first post. I guess in fear that I would start it and then not continue.. much like many things in my life. That and the fact that putting things in writing makes it more permanent.

Anyhow a lot has happened and a lot has changed and while I have every intention to update this for whomever to read, tonight I just felt the need to write about right now.

I've been scared the last few days. This coming Saturday Suga Mama  leaves for CA for two months. I will be in the apartment alone. Although I am looking so forward to "stretching out" I am also scared to be so isolated.

I do not have a strong support system locally built yet and I can imagine myself retreating already.

Tonight I expressed these thoughts to Suga Mama and to Big A, of course both were totally supportive and of course I know I will work through this, but I don't want to just yet.

And then it hit me. I am going about this the wrong way. Yes I keep saying "I will be ok," and yes I know I will be, but why even play with the thoughts of not being ready for this or thinking about how much alone time I may have?

I am ready to have time alone.

It is time for me to go one step deeper into independence before my partner in crime, Shinee Pink, gets here in mid-February.

I am taking long deep breaths in preparation for this new time coming, because I need this.

I guess I felt the need to start writing now because I can feel the next stage coming and didn't want to miss documenting it.
I am not sure why this transition is causing so much static, but I am letting go of control and awknowleding it will work out the way its supposed to, just like everything else has.